June, 3, 2018

10AM

Currently in sunday school class not feeling so poopy but still poopy enough to be uncomfortable. I may continue to write later as my time here continues. I can say that so far two people have said exactly what my momma has told me all yesterday. is it a coincidence that we are talking about emotions today in class?

30 Day Song Challenge

Day 3: Song that makes you happy

Novocaine by Fall Out Boy

10PM

I talked to pastor after service and we both cried. He basically confirmed what others have said "to retain what God had for me and push aside what isn't for me." I feel better but I'm still hurt and embarrassed but slightly better. still sad but i can smile now. Neuro in the week!!!

June 2, 2018

10AM
I woke up still feeling like poop. I woke up crying about last night. I know I need to talk to pastor about what happened. I've never cursed anyone so I don't know where that came from.
Currently

Eating: nada
Drinking: nada
Watching: Coco
Listening: Coco
Reading: nada

30 DAY SONG CHALLENGE
Day 2: least favorite song

Anything norteño or banda or mariachi

10PM
I talked to mom about Friday some more and I still feel bad but not as bad. Pastor may give me a ride to church tomorrow so we'll see how that goes.

OH!!! I CUT MY HAIR!!!!

June 1, 2018

10AM:

Lately I have been depressed. i know it started a few days ago and it has gotten worse. At times I don't want to live. I'm not suicidal it's just that if I didn't wake up it wouldn't be a bad thing. I think I need to see Eric again.

Currently:

eating: nothing

drinking: cold coffee

watching: nothing

listening to: Juanes

reading: nothing

30 DAY SONG CHALLENGE

DAY 1: Your favorite song

Kill You or The Way I Am - Eminem!!!

1AM:

So I don't know what to say. I went to church tonight only to be prayed for and be told by a lady that i have cursed people AND made me feel like I have a demon inside. i don't just feel sad and depressed but nowI'm hurt and embarrassed. she didn't say those things in my ear on that personal level but into the microphone so everyone could hear. I think I will cry myself to sleep.

I am back!!!

Okay, so for thelongest time I have wanted to turn this blog into a blog about my life and I really think that now is that time. So from now on every entry that goes into this blog will be my journal entries from everything going on in my life (all the highs and the lows). Yes, you will read everything I vent out!

Now to begin the transferring of my journal entries!!!!

Sexual Revolution ★★★★★

Sexual Revolution

By: Kris Vallotton

Pub: Aug. 1, 2009

Format: Paperback

Note: I did not purchase this book it was a gift from my old youth pastor. 

Description:

(Formerly titled Purity) The world is ready for another sexual revolution! People worldwide are crying out for a sexual revolution! Counter to the sexual revolution of the 1960s, this revolution values virginity and honors marriage. This revolution sees perversion as sin not an acceptable post-modern mindset. Young adults, teens, fathers, mothers, and grandparents want to shake off the slime of depravity and the bondage of religion, and enter into the joy of passionate purity. This book takes a non-religious, gut-honest, fresh look at a subject as old as Adam and Eve.The wisdom within helps you and those you love emerge from the mire with your trophy of purity intact so you can present it to your lover on your honeymoon. While some nations seem to live in a perpetual orgy, and religion relegates the masses to sexual prison, people need to know they can overcome the power of peer pressure and push back the cesspool of distorted cultural values.You can take a vow of Purity today you will never regret the decision!

My thoughts:

I loved this book!! During high school and the beginning of college I went through a phase where I wanted to help or talk to Young Mothers. This book is mainly about premarital sex and the goal to remain pure until marriage. The description of the book says it takes a non-religious look at purity and for the most part that is true, now that doesn't mean the God is not mentioned in the book its just not shoving the Bible in your face. I will say that when I read this book for the first time the first two chapters made me cry, now I do cry easily but it was such a touching story that I couldn't help it.  I really enjoyed this book and I have read it multiple times. I honestly think it's a great book for Christian parents to own to start the talk with their kids. I recall being told about abstinence when I was younger and when I was in Missionettes in the Girls Only group (high school group) we went into it a little deeper. In the world where celebrities are idolized it's hard for a young person to hold to the beliefs being taught to them. I have a close friend who was never really religious and I remember we've had this conversation in particular as to why wait until marriage to have sex, I explained my viewpoint and what she said next took me by surprise. She said that she wished someone had told her to wait and that God wanted you to wait but because she was raised without biblical teaching and I say biblical teaching because she was raised knowing that their is a God and to pray to him when things aren't going well. 

My Rating:★★★★★ Must Have

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Linkin Park - Hybrid Theory

A few days ago I was on Facebook and read that Linkin Park teamed up with Google Play and were offering their first album Hybrid Theory for free!! I got it for free. Everyone should check it out because it is an amazing album. Go and get it before it is too late!!! 

Crochet One-Skein Wonders® for Babies - ★★★★

Crochet One-Skein Wonders® for Babies

By: Judith Durant, Edie Eckman

Pub: May 03, 2016

Format: Digital

Note: I received a free copy of this book via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.

Description:
Irresistible! This collection of 101 projects makes it easy and fun to crochet adorable clothes, toys, and accessories for the babies and toddlers you love. Each project uses just one skein of yarn, many take just a few hours to complete, and plenty are suitable for beginners. Hats and caps, bootees and socks, mitts, dresses, tops and bottoms -- plus blankets, bibs, soft toys, bottle cozies, diaper bags, and more -- there's something here for every baby! These original patterns were contributed by 54 designers around the world, and each one comes with complete instructions, charts, schematics, and beautiful photographs.

My Thoughts:
I took the time to read every pattern in this book and as a crochet beginner most of the patterns seem very easy to understand and complete. Each pattern gives the materials need to complete the project. Currently I am going to start a baby toy for my nephew with an adorable pattern I found in the book. This book is specifically for babies and infants, though one or two patterns do have some sizing for older children. Also, the book includes explanation on certain stitches and techniques needed throughout the book. I really enjoyed looking through this book and learning about different projects to crochet. I would definitely recommend this book for someone who wants to crochet different projects for babies.

My Rating: ★★★★ Great

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